"hands open"

i have been thinking about this concept of living "hands open"... in the sense that God can and will do as He desires in my life. so, how much different would my responses to His leading be, if my attitude was that of living a life "hands open"? it's a tricky thing to stand before a sovereign God and sneakily attempt to rebel. it has not worked out so much for me in the past. but, i think i have sought rebellion because my life has been "closed" to His guiding. see... i think i might actually know "better" than sovereign God. silly lil' rebecca. but then i am reminded that God tells us to approach that throne room of "grace"... sweet karis. there is such beauty in God sitting in that particular throne room with such a desperately needed title. i can imagine it in my head. a row of doors... each one leading to a different throne room.. and as God Himself walks down the hallway, deciding upon which one bests suits His purposes... He smiles as He looks upon the throne of grace. He walks past the throne of judgment, the throne of wrath, the throne of punishment... these serve their purposes, but these will not be the thrones His children approach Him on... only the throne of grace will suffice. and so He sits. and He waits. and as i approach the throne of grace, i am able to do so in confidence, because He has chosen that throne to sit upon. amazing karis. it is this God, on this throne, that i can trust in living "hands open"... and so today... i choose to live a life yielded completely to Him. let's see how i do tomorrow. =)